The Last Single Women Crown

In another 11 days, I'll be the one
Does it means that I'm the one to be left outside?
Maybe ....
I'm not asking all of you there to pull me inside
I know this is the risk that I have to face
So I'll face it with my way

This pattern has already begin
Couple of you met couple of you and then met another couple of you
And so on and so on
There's even a "wedding party" that I'm not invited into
How amazing this friendship become
I'll not blame anyone nor asking your pity

Guess that we have to walk our own path of life now?
Enjoy and Take Care

Hasil test dari Tickle.com

Lusi, you have an unusually strong psychic talent in the area of Precognition

This means you have an uncanny ability to look into the future and anticipate what is going to happen. By knowing something's going to occur, you can even change the outcome of events for the better.
Lusi, our in-depth analysis also shows you have other hidden psychic strengths including retrocognition (the ability to know what has happened in the past), telepathy (the ability to sense people's true thoughts) and clairvoyance (the ability to see the unknown).

How many soulmate I have?

Telepathy, from the Greek, tele meaning "remote" and, patheia meaning "to be affected by", is a term used to describe the transfer of information on thoughts or feelings between individuals by means other than the five classical senses

Pernahkah kau memiliki hubungan yang cukup erat dengan seseorang yang akhirnya bisa memungkinkan proses semacam telepathy diantara kalian? Asik juga ya kalo kita bisa mengasah kemampuan telepati kita, jadi bebas pulsa deh. Nga perlu susah2 sms pula :p
It's about my highschool bestfriend and I Entah apa istilahnya untuk komunikasi tanpa kontak itu, tapi kayaknya akhir2 ini terjadi cukup sering kebetulan untuk kami.Saking sering e uda rada lupa apa aja.

Yang terakir critanya aku janjian nih ma dia. Waktu mau pergi aku pake sweater item, uda mau brangkat krasa nga enak jadi ganti lagi pake kemeja cewek putih. Ternyata ... dia juga mau pake item nga jadi trus pakenya juga putih.

Dari smua kebetulan2 itu akhirnya penasaran juga. Apa bener seseorang bisa punya kontak batin dengan orang lain yang deket? So, katakanlah rabu malem aku iseng. Coba ah, jadi aku batin dia, n aku bilang kalo emang dia krasa, brarti bsok (kamis) dia bakal sms aku. Sore2, bukan hanya dia sms aku, dia juga telpon, n juga ngajak dinner bareng padahal harusnya dia ada kegiatan lain n tiba2 malas melakukannya. Doeng.... nah loh!! Kebetulan lagi?

Hahahaha whatever it is, no matter we got it or not, you're still one of my goodfriend, dear.

Kata bbrp temen dicoba aja lagi keorang lain,sapa? rahasia..... hahahha

Another Congratulation

Engagement : ........ & .........

I know the time will come
Should I feel sad, Should I feel dead
I know that you will say it
Should I feel dissapointed, Should I feel dread

You try to say "What If"
But I think we'll never know right?
Just don't ruin everything
I know I'll miss you, I know that I'll loosing you
But.....
Not in the way I'm loosing you when I'm loosing you as the one I love
Because I already loosing you a long time ago
Thanks to me
I'll just loosing you as a bestfriend I can always counting on this time

8 years
And all of that time we're stuck with the question "what if" without doing nothing
8 years you've been with her
I think it's time to go on
Go on even if that means I'm not apart of anything on your future

Congratulations...hope that you really find "the one"

Thank You Letter

I wanna say thank you for all the concern and surprises (the good and the bad) that all of you gave to me on my day. Lucky me to have you pal! Thank you ....

For Lik n Yen untuk midnight sms nya

For Cin for the call at 2.30 a.m. (Walau nga tak angkat, tidur bok!!)

For Dvs, Lily, Maria, Nyak (walo dlm kondisimu yg buruk), Meri, Melly untuk semua wish lewat sms.

For Pyor, Panci, Bo, and Ellys for the surprise and mess my studio up :

For Valen,Pre, Jus, Pei, Bus for the "lovely and special" birthday cake. Sad, you can't come.For Mut, Silvi, and Memot, Vles untuk PM di YM

For Nettie , for showing up in my studio

For my workmate Yen n Lilik for the present and the cake

For Pon and Yem for the phone call

And untuk smua yang mungkin terlewat atau tidak tersebut satu persatu, am really thank you for walking through this day with me.

Happy 27th Birthday to ..... Me :p

From Astrology.com :

Refresh and renew yourself with what July has to offer! Mercury ends its retrograde in Cancer on July 9, marking the moment that you should begin to incorporate the lifestyle changes or new ways of thinking you've confronted since the retrograde began on June 15. If you have taken care of business, so to speak, you will have the opportunity to move forward.

The new Moon in Cancer on July 14 calls for you to kick back and relax. Pleasure is beckoning now, so you should make the most of it! When Mars -- in determined Taurus -- is activated by independent Uranus on July 20, it signals the perfect time to focus on self improvement. Don't forget to think outside the box!

Too young for me to say I know everything
Too Old for me to say I'll wait
One more years has pass me by
Still that feeling haunting on me

Too young for me to decide my way of life
Too old for me to wait for ... nothing
One more years has pass me by
And it's all coming back to me now

Too young for me to stay awake at this time of midnight
Too old for me to spend my first second of my birthday this way

So I'm telling myself
Every second in this life is to precious just to say that I'm too young or to old for something
You can mention thousand of too young n too old and do .... nothing
Just believe in yourself, enjoy your life, and walk through this with brave
Whatever you lead your life into, just make sure that you're happy
Happy Birthday ... :p Amen.

Masih tentang Kebetulan

First Costumer di studio ku ber initial R. Sedikit banyak, keberuntungan yang aku dapat juga hasil promosi dia di sekolahnya. I have to say thank you to her, n wish her luck at her new college. Jadi itu crita pertamanya.

Crita ke - 2, my bestfriend DJ, sekitar 3 tahun lalu waktu merit dia membuat furniture di seseorang yg berlokasi di daerah rumahku sini. Lalu dia merekomendasikan ke Ve karna she'll getting married also.

So, tadi aku temani Ve ke tempat furniture itu. Sehabis membicarakan apa saja yang mau di kerjakan, kata punya kata, bicara punya bicara.....ternyata tak lain adalah sang empunya adalah mama dari R.

Winter?

Tahun ini rasanya semua jalan serba cepat, malah bisa dibilang lari. Setuju nga? hahaha bahkan si musim panas nga mau tinggal lama2, dia langsung lari sprint trus ngasih tongkat estafet ke musim dingin lagi. Musim dingin??? Lah gimana nga, skrg ini uda mulai hujan2 lagi tapi tidak parah sih. Cuman dinginnyaaaa.....brrrrr.

Tadi dengar di radio kita bakal berada pada kedinginan sekitar 20 derajat C (di pagi hari) sampe sekitar bulan September. Air uda mendekati air es nih kalo malem.Wahhh bayangin tuh kalo di Batu brapa derajat sekarang? brrrr.

So, ini saatnya kuarin baju musim dingin nih. Take care n jaga kesehatan deh buat kalian smua terutama yang punya masalah ama rematik. Hhahahahaha....

Crossing Life Path

I don't know how bout with you, but do you ever notice there's some people that we don't know and they don't even know us either but always around us? Let me tell you mine.

There's one girl earlier when I was in highschool. I always saw her passing me to another direction everyday when I go to my school. It's happen almost everyday. Then I go to college, still sometimes I saw her on the street.We both using motorcycle.

There's also one man. There was a time when my mother have a plan to make a boarding house, we search some advertisement on the newspaper. There's one interesting house, so we called the person who have it. He asked us to come to his house (the one he living at) not the one he sell to talk first and then his son will take us to the house we interested. Both of them is a dentist(the father and son). There was my first time met his son, then I saw him some couple time again in some different places.

Then there was my bestfriend wedding, I and one other bestfriend become the organizer. We try to find the right flourist for the wedding party. After some phone call we interested to see the flourist portfolio so the contact person (a she) tell us to come to her house. I just can't believe it, again I come to the dentist house!!!!!! And the flourist is the mother!!!!! What a coincidence??
I told you this story because I just see the son again yesterday.

Maybe I'll tell myself that maybe he's my soulmate if he doesn't have wife and kid(s). I know this just because I saw him with them a couple time. I'm not doubt that I'll see him again.

My Pepsi Collections ;p

Ayo sapa mau bantu lengkapin koleksiku? Dari negara mana aja welcome kok , cukup kalengnya aja ;p Thanks before :)

Fullmoon

Just wanna share what I saw from my house's rooftop. Isn't it beautiful?
Happy Anniversary Surabaya (tuh TP yg di poto). Happy Waisak Day buat yg ngrayain.

May Fiesta 2007

Kangennya denger kata2 itu. May Fiesta ,the (only) time in a year I see all of those face. So familiar n friendly faces. Those faces that fill up my days on my younger years. Those faces that I missed so much! Those laughs, those chat, those synical word, those harsh language, everything of those....hahaha .... I can forget all of that life matter that 2 hours. That happy face menghapus sgala kecapean.

This year, like before May fiesta diadain di BananaLeaf Mayjend. Acara ritual ini buat ngrayain ultah Vei,Hen,DJ,Ardi,Mbang,Jov,Lun yg smua jth bln Mei.By destiny they found each other n become friends n even lovers. Personel tamu kl ini sdkt berubah formasi : me, iyan (n new girlfriend vera), nico,novi,nonik,encep.

Next year or another year on the future, I hope we still can see each other pal. Just this one time in a year. Just another 2-3 hours to catch up, updating each other, and see all of that faces again. Faces that filling up that old n happy times. We grow up, we change, we take our chance in life, but let our friendship also grows with us. Nice to have u all my friends, I'll not bored to documented all of those smile. Your smile always inspired me!

One "busy" Day

Sunday, demi mendapat interior portfolio gue off kerja hari ini. Siang gitu, I menuju rumah Maria (my highschool bestfriend) buat moto bbrp sudut rumahnya. Baru kali ini juga kerumahnya yang ditinggali setelah merit. Jadi inget dulu juga sering nongkrong di rumahnya juga. Kayake the longest friendship I ever had deh. Setidaknya kami kembali aktif kontak taon ini setelah sebelumnya sedikit renggang dengan kesibukan kami sendiri2. Skrg ketemu di dunia maya ato di real world. Sekian taon, we are change, we've been through a lot of things. But, I'm glad that one thing never changes between us. We are still a bestfriend walo hmpr tdk ada kesamaan diantara kami :p
So, abis moto kami lunch di PTC. And for the first time she drives and I'm the passenger. Huahahaha you driving good pal. Trus I balek ke studio, sedikit lembur.

Sore, I met Lik n Cin without the other 2 girls in our "crazy" gank. They're my college bestfriends. Again, we've been through a lot....and here I meant really a lot of things. Then the busy years come, some of us not actually live in Sby any longer. Lik came from Jember(where she works now). We had a gathering at TP, updating each other. Then suddenly I think I miss all that "crazy years" and we were really2 crazy those days. So, we go to wuf2 karaoke at PTC (secong time in one day???) Time rushing and nga krasa akhirnya kita ambil paket happy hour ampe jam 2a.m. Ketika kita kuar, doeng ..tiada org lain di PTC kecuali kami ber3. Hahaha. Mau pulang? bisa nga dibukainn portal, so kami ke .... Taman Bungkul!! Minum red wine, nikmatin the new taman bungkul. Ada bbrp orang ber internet ria tp we're the only women there. Lmyn narik perhatian, but we just having fun n talk sampe akirnya I plg jam 5 an (portal dah buka).

Untung senin gue libur. tp ya nga libur sih cr foto interior lg di HOS ma pyor, lembur lg, trus bulutangkis.HUA!! abis sudah seger tp abis. Hahahaha, Nite nite pal! It's good to hv you all in this life.

Celebrities Human Right???

Early morning
She wakes up Knock, knock, knock on the door
It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for
Isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl
And they say.. She's so Lucky She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?
Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning and she keeps on winning
But tell me, what happens when it stops

cuplikan lagu dari Britney Spears yang menggambarkan kehidupan para bintang, celebrities, dan smua orang terkenal yang bisa kita lihat di tv.

Tonight, I watch some television show about PAPARAZZI. Lalu kubayangkan bagaimana rasanya jadi para celebrities itu ketika hidup mereka di intai 24 jam non-stop. Isn't it creepy?
Dari mereka bangun dan keluar beranda mereka menikmati matahari, jalan2, naik mobil, turun mobil, makan, minum, berlibur,berjemur, melahirkan, bawa anak jalan2, bawa anak ke sekolah, nonton di bioskop, ke supermarket,shopping, olahraga, bahkan waktu pinjem video. Dan segudang kegiatan mereka, setiap langkahnya selalu diikuti dan dikuntit demi menemukan sedikit celah dan kesalahan yang mereka buat.Bahkan jika sang artis berbaik hati berpose demi mendapat 1 hari ketenangan .... Paparazzi tetap tidak melepas mangsa mereka.

Begitu banyak cara mereka gunakan demi memancing emosi sang artis,termasuk mengata-ngatai,mengolok dan lain sebagainya yang sangat memalukan. Jika sang artis bereaksi maka semakin senanglah sang fotografer.
Jika celebrities marah, mengumpat, menghajar sang fotografer, melempar kamera bukankah itu suatu hal yang manusiawi? Come on, they just a human being. Bayangkan kalau ada orang asing membuntuti mu dan anak mu diam2 dalam mobil mengawasimu, bukankah insting sebagai orang tua untuk melindungi anakmu akan timbul??? Binatang aja juga begitu!!Nah kalo sudah begitu .... sang artis lah yang dianggap bersalah kalau sampai menjamah sang fotografer atau kameranya. Pengadilan akan nyuruh mrk bayar pada sang paparazzi.Weird?? Yah...sometimes we can't really expect justice in this weird world. Lalu dimana yang namanya HAM mereka??? Emang mereka tidak berhak sebagai manusia? Jadi apa dong? Bagaimana kalau seorang kriminal berkedok sebagai paparazzi dan mencelakai para celebrities ini???? HUH!!!

One thing .... it's so lucky dictionary have other word for this shallow photographer who can't respect their object so I'm not shame with who I am right now ..... A photographer!

"Desiderata" - Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant, they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble, it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in face of sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery & broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be careful. Strive to be happy.

Baru kliatan lagi puisi ini, jadi ingat puisi ini dulu diajarkan waktu kuliah... jadi bernostalgia...a good poem that make us remember....that we're worthed n have the right to be happy. All of us!

2 days eat like a pig!

16.00 1 porsi bakso
19.00 2 piring nasi + sambal
22.30 1 potong es krim
22.40 1 gelas jus anggur
23.00 1 gelas sekoteng

10.30 1 piring nasi + soto + telur orak arik
18.00 2 piring nasi goreng + 3 potong ayam bumbu kecap + sate +urap2 + buah
19.30 1 kue kukus
21.00 1 gelas susu coklat
21.00 1 porsi indomie kuah

++ camilan2 n air bergentong - gentong

Ini adalah menuku slama 2 hari di Batu n Malang. Bawaannya laperrrr mulu. Hari pertama dari sby I mampir di Taman Dayu, jemput Ve trus ke Malang main bentar, dah lama nga ngobrol. Malemnya I ke Batu tinggal di rumah Lik. We have a bestfriend wedding ceremony the next day.

Love and Mistake

Maybe the only thing (at least one of them) in this world that has no answer
Is the question : What is love?
Love can be fun, Love can be dangerous

There's a lot of feeling we have when it's deal with love
Happy,Sad,Anger,Jealous,dissapoint, possesive ...
Love can be anything

So, should be love become the only thing we think
When we have to choose our path of life?
I don't know my friend
I don't really know how it can happend in our life
How we make mistake
How we misinterpret this love

But what I really know is
We all make mistakes
Whatever it is, there's always a way to fix it
Just remember that you're not alone
We're always be here to lift you up when you're down
And I know that you'll also do that when the other down
Then we'll now that everything's gonna be okay

I can feel a lot of anger and disapointment fill the air
We hardly breath and the time ticking
Ready to take the life we have if we're not solve it right now
That's why above all of the hurt and anger feeling
I'll wishing you the best with the new family

--me--

Today Tarot Card

The Temperance card reversed suggests that extreme emotions could flare up as patience is pushed to the limit, which means built-up frustrations finally seek their release.

Once it is all out there, you can regain composure or self-control and work toward a long-term solution or compromise.

As long as you don't expect a quick fix, you can recover a balance between the stresses of daily life, personal gratification and romantic desires or relationship goals that may have been taking a back seat to emotional or sexual dysfunctions.

Take it one day at a time.

(Wow, today Tarot card said a lot bout me. Take a rest, and recover from the stresses)

KAPAN NIKAH? By A-mild

Masih jomblo?
Kapan nikah?
Tunggu apalagi
Jangan pilih - pilih
Kapan nikah?
kapan?
kapan?

May....

Maybe yes
Maybe no

ENJOY AJA!

Since I'm being the last person to married
It doesn't meant that I'll be a miserable and pathetic person, right?
Why rush?
Because the women body ticking?
Is it wrong if I just waiting for that someone
Someone who meant to be here by my side?
One side said no it's not
The other said yes that's selfish

So....I think for now....ENJOY AJA!

The Joy of Life

Last night I hv the courage
The courage to let it go
Let my job waiting

Last night I sipped the joy of life
In this tough moment
I made myself laughing so hard
I drunk and felt something unfamiliar lately
Happiness ...

Last night for a moment ... I don't feel alone
That's not my job who's standing next to me
But it's you my friends

Last night all of you remind me
There's still a life to walk on
A joy to be share
A laugh to make
A friend to hold

Thanks for being there to share your love