One "busy" Day

Sunday, demi mendapat interior portfolio gue off kerja hari ini. Siang gitu, I menuju rumah Maria (my highschool bestfriend) buat moto bbrp sudut rumahnya. Baru kali ini juga kerumahnya yang ditinggali setelah merit. Jadi inget dulu juga sering nongkrong di rumahnya juga. Kayake the longest friendship I ever had deh. Setidaknya kami kembali aktif kontak taon ini setelah sebelumnya sedikit renggang dengan kesibukan kami sendiri2. Skrg ketemu di dunia maya ato di real world. Sekian taon, we are change, we've been through a lot of things. But, I'm glad that one thing never changes between us. We are still a bestfriend walo hmpr tdk ada kesamaan diantara kami :p
So, abis moto kami lunch di PTC. And for the first time she drives and I'm the passenger. Huahahaha you driving good pal. Trus I balek ke studio, sedikit lembur.

Sore, I met Lik n Cin without the other 2 girls in our "crazy" gank. They're my college bestfriends. Again, we've been through a lot....and here I meant really a lot of things. Then the busy years come, some of us not actually live in Sby any longer. Lik came from Jember(where she works now). We had a gathering at TP, updating each other. Then suddenly I think I miss all that "crazy years" and we were really2 crazy those days. So, we go to wuf2 karaoke at PTC (secong time in one day???) Time rushing and nga krasa akhirnya kita ambil paket happy hour ampe jam 2a.m. Ketika kita kuar, doeng ..tiada org lain di PTC kecuali kami ber3. Hahaha. Mau pulang? bisa nga dibukainn portal, so kami ke .... Taman Bungkul!! Minum red wine, nikmatin the new taman bungkul. Ada bbrp orang ber internet ria tp we're the only women there. Lmyn narik perhatian, but we just having fun n talk sampe akirnya I plg jam 5 an (portal dah buka).

Untung senin gue libur. tp ya nga libur sih cr foto interior lg di HOS ma pyor, lembur lg, trus bulutangkis.HUA!! abis sudah seger tp abis. Hahahaha, Nite nite pal! It's good to hv you all in this life.

Celebrities Human Right???

Early morning
She wakes up Knock, knock, knock on the door
It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for
Isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl
And they say.. She's so Lucky She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?
Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning and she keeps on winning
But tell me, what happens when it stops

cuplikan lagu dari Britney Spears yang menggambarkan kehidupan para bintang, celebrities, dan smua orang terkenal yang bisa kita lihat di tv.

Tonight, I watch some television show about PAPARAZZI. Lalu kubayangkan bagaimana rasanya jadi para celebrities itu ketika hidup mereka di intai 24 jam non-stop. Isn't it creepy?
Dari mereka bangun dan keluar beranda mereka menikmati matahari, jalan2, naik mobil, turun mobil, makan, minum, berlibur,berjemur, melahirkan, bawa anak jalan2, bawa anak ke sekolah, nonton di bioskop, ke supermarket,shopping, olahraga, bahkan waktu pinjem video. Dan segudang kegiatan mereka, setiap langkahnya selalu diikuti dan dikuntit demi menemukan sedikit celah dan kesalahan yang mereka buat.Bahkan jika sang artis berbaik hati berpose demi mendapat 1 hari ketenangan .... Paparazzi tetap tidak melepas mangsa mereka.

Begitu banyak cara mereka gunakan demi memancing emosi sang artis,termasuk mengata-ngatai,mengolok dan lain sebagainya yang sangat memalukan. Jika sang artis bereaksi maka semakin senanglah sang fotografer.
Jika celebrities marah, mengumpat, menghajar sang fotografer, melempar kamera bukankah itu suatu hal yang manusiawi? Come on, they just a human being. Bayangkan kalau ada orang asing membuntuti mu dan anak mu diam2 dalam mobil mengawasimu, bukankah insting sebagai orang tua untuk melindungi anakmu akan timbul??? Binatang aja juga begitu!!Nah kalo sudah begitu .... sang artis lah yang dianggap bersalah kalau sampai menjamah sang fotografer atau kameranya. Pengadilan akan nyuruh mrk bayar pada sang paparazzi.Weird?? Yah...sometimes we can't really expect justice in this weird world. Lalu dimana yang namanya HAM mereka??? Emang mereka tidak berhak sebagai manusia? Jadi apa dong? Bagaimana kalau seorang kriminal berkedok sebagai paparazzi dan mencelakai para celebrities ini???? HUH!!!

One thing .... it's so lucky dictionary have other word for this shallow photographer who can't respect their object so I'm not shame with who I am right now ..... A photographer!

"Desiderata" - Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant, they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble, it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in face of sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery & broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be careful. Strive to be happy.

Baru kliatan lagi puisi ini, jadi ingat puisi ini dulu diajarkan waktu kuliah... jadi bernostalgia...a good poem that make us remember....that we're worthed n have the right to be happy. All of us!

2 days eat like a pig!

16.00 1 porsi bakso
19.00 2 piring nasi + sambal
22.30 1 potong es krim
22.40 1 gelas jus anggur
23.00 1 gelas sekoteng

10.30 1 piring nasi + soto + telur orak arik
18.00 2 piring nasi goreng + 3 potong ayam bumbu kecap + sate +urap2 + buah
19.30 1 kue kukus
21.00 1 gelas susu coklat
21.00 1 porsi indomie kuah

++ camilan2 n air bergentong - gentong

Ini adalah menuku slama 2 hari di Batu n Malang. Bawaannya laperrrr mulu. Hari pertama dari sby I mampir di Taman Dayu, jemput Ve trus ke Malang main bentar, dah lama nga ngobrol. Malemnya I ke Batu tinggal di rumah Lik. We have a bestfriend wedding ceremony the next day.

Love and Mistake

Maybe the only thing (at least one of them) in this world that has no answer
Is the question : What is love?
Love can be fun, Love can be dangerous

There's a lot of feeling we have when it's deal with love
Happy,Sad,Anger,Jealous,dissapoint, possesive ...
Love can be anything

So, should be love become the only thing we think
When we have to choose our path of life?
I don't know my friend
I don't really know how it can happend in our life
How we make mistake
How we misinterpret this love

But what I really know is
We all make mistakes
Whatever it is, there's always a way to fix it
Just remember that you're not alone
We're always be here to lift you up when you're down
And I know that you'll also do that when the other down
Then we'll now that everything's gonna be okay

I can feel a lot of anger and disapointment fill the air
We hardly breath and the time ticking
Ready to take the life we have if we're not solve it right now
That's why above all of the hurt and anger feeling
I'll wishing you the best with the new family

--me--

Today Tarot Card

The Temperance card reversed suggests that extreme emotions could flare up as patience is pushed to the limit, which means built-up frustrations finally seek their release.

Once it is all out there, you can regain composure or self-control and work toward a long-term solution or compromise.

As long as you don't expect a quick fix, you can recover a balance between the stresses of daily life, personal gratification and romantic desires or relationship goals that may have been taking a back seat to emotional or sexual dysfunctions.

Take it one day at a time.

(Wow, today Tarot card said a lot bout me. Take a rest, and recover from the stresses)

KAPAN NIKAH? By A-mild

Masih jomblo?
Kapan nikah?
Tunggu apalagi
Jangan pilih - pilih
Kapan nikah?
kapan?
kapan?

May....

Maybe yes
Maybe no

ENJOY AJA!

Since I'm being the last person to married
It doesn't meant that I'll be a miserable and pathetic person, right?
Why rush?
Because the women body ticking?
Is it wrong if I just waiting for that someone
Someone who meant to be here by my side?
One side said no it's not
The other said yes that's selfish

So....I think for now....ENJOY AJA!

The Joy of Life

Last night I hv the courage
The courage to let it go
Let my job waiting

Last night I sipped the joy of life
In this tough moment
I made myself laughing so hard
I drunk and felt something unfamiliar lately
Happiness ...

Last night for a moment ... I don't feel alone
That's not my job who's standing next to me
But it's you my friends

Last night all of you remind me
There's still a life to walk on
A joy to be share
A laugh to make
A friend to hold

Thanks for being there to share your love

One Regret (Dedicated to a broken hearted friend)

One moment
One love
One person
One regret

Too old to regret
Too young to be truth
I was letting you go with the ship
Bring out the light from my life
Sailing with someone else

One isle
One soul
One wing
One regret

My body screaming
This heart bleeding everytime I hear your voice
Whenever I think of you
Wherever I go
I just wanna hold your hand

One universe
One regret
We've been together
Always together even now ...
I can see your eyes
I can feel your breath
I can hear that laugh but ...

One regret
you're not mine anymore
One regret I have no courage to tell you that I LOVE YOU
One regret I'll let you go and try to live my life without you

--me--

LOCKED

I think I have a new hobby here
Getting locked

Okay .... a couple month ago, I got locked inside my studio. I left the key outside and I couldn't reach it. Luckyly Vei dan her brother was around, they save me

A couple week ago, I got locked outside my houseAfter locked every door from inside, I close the rolling door from outside. Soo.... I couldn't get inside again to get my studio key that was inside. Then Vei, Maya and I had to sit outside the studio waiting for the customer until my family getting back 2 hours later from Lawang

Yesterday, I got locked outside my studio I couldn't get my car and house key that was locked inside my carIt was raining ... n... nobody can help this time,no one around me now

Okay, so I'm walking in the rain going to my boarding house
Climb up the door (lucky there's no other people there since it's raining)
And so lucky the other car key can be reach from my room's window. After climb the wall again, I walking back to studio n open my car

What's next???
Oh I really had to get my concentration back!

The Queen of Pentacles

The Queen of Pentacles card suggests that you could reap the benefits from this Queen's generous domestic connection, perhaps by learning from her example.

You can create the comforts of a career, home and family without being run ragged or seeming smug.

Treat each project, plant, pet or job like your baby. Foster its independence or its ability to grow big and strong.

Give someone who looks up to you another chance, or turn an error into your unique style by adding your special touch. Choose quality over quantity and love may flourish.

You might have the opportunity to nurture some sensual pleasure or acquire a more abundant and fertile environment.

There She Goes

It's been so long
when I had this feeling
It's been so hard
to remember what's this feeling stand for ...
I think it's ... alone

Some friends walkout from my way of life
Some friends still keep in touch whereever they are
Some friends still here on my way

And one of the best will have her new path of life soon
Getting along with the crowd before her
Leave me the only ladies out of the big crowd

I will miss ...1...2...3...4......................
I will miss a lot of things I can barely counting in this life
I will miss my schoolmate, I will miss my workmate
I will miss my assistant, my cashier, my make up artist
I will miss my housemate, my good counselor
I will miss you my bestfriend

We'll take different bus from here and now
But still, remember to turn around sometimes
Because I'm still here, a mile away but still on the same direction
Too catch up our own dreams

Gud luck with your new journey of life
Wish everything good for you and your love one

Ting ting ting

Tuh bunyi bel kentongan menandakan jam 3 pagi udahan. Udah lama nga denger bunyi itu, sekitar 4 tahun sejak pindah ke kos. ting ting ting. Kalo jam 12 kentongannya juga dipukul 12 kali. Trus aku berpikir, emang kentongan itu di bunyiin untuk ngasih tau jam ke sapa ya? Kan smua orang pada tidur, mang ada yang butuh tau jam brapa skrg? hehehe... any answer?

Udah lama banget rasane aku bisa melek sampe jam gini. Hiks.. nga bisa bobo. Kopi tadi siang kemanjuren...

Move to Studio

30 - 3 - 2007---12.54 a.m. Tangan udah mati rasa, mata udah lengket ama monitor. Itu dah terjadi beberapa minggu belakangan. Nope, aku nga bete kok. Cuapek tapi ya sueneng banyak costumer. Lalu, keadaan lebih menggila lagi untuk 1 bulan ke depan. Dapet job buku kenangan punya sekolahan deket sini tapi juga akan ditinggalkan oleh "tangan kanan"-ku. Menyusul bulan mei "tangan kiri"-ku juga pergi, dah mau di amputasi smua.Huks........ will miss you girls. So little time so much to do deh, otak dah mau pecah rasanya.

Pikir punya pikir, berhubung blom punya laptop akhirnya kemarin bareng sama Vei, aku "pindah" ke Studio supaya bisa kerja di malam hari juga. Hahahaha.....workaholic? Nga juga kali ya, buktinya masih bisa nge-blog malahan. Ini hanyalah tuntutan hidup demi sesuap nasi n segenggam berlian. huahauhauha......

Buat yang ngira I punya pacar makanya menghilang( I wish), yah pacar baruku ya seperangkat kompie ini. Mohon maklum untuk bbrp saat ini kalo nga bisa muncul ya. Miss you there.

Records ?

Ini pe-er nya dari Imoet soal record record an gitu. So langsung aja ya ....

Records that change your life
Nga sampe segitunya sih ....

Records that you've listened more than once
Tergantung apa yang baru aku denger kali ya. hehehe.... skrg lagi nelly furtado,sebelumnya Because of you by Kelly Clarkson.

Records that you just don't understand
Hummm kayake tuh Underground and Hard Rock gitu yang (spt kata Imoet) gedumbrangan nga jelas.

Records that made you cry
Nga sampe cry lah cuman krasa sedih gitu kali ya, humm ada show me the meaning of being lonely by backstreet boys? nga inget deh kalo lagi mau diinget gini. Aslinya sih uda melankolis .... hehehe ... ama lagu ne ebiet g ade yang tentang orang buta....dst dst ..

Records that creep the hell out of you
blom kepikiran,abis lagu-nya Gregorian or Enigma yang kata temen2 menakutkan, menurutku asik tuh. Full of mystery. Mungkin kalo yang nyanyi aku baru menakutkan bagiku.

Records you wish never been made
Apa ye? ya mungkin lagu lagu gedumbrangan yang nga jelas itu. Buat rusak tenggorokan.

Records that you've just listening
ALL THE GOOD THINGS by Nelly Furtado uda dengerin entah keberapa kali ampe Pei ngomel. Biasanya request di Pre-chan tapi akirnya dapet mp3 nya. hehehe....

Hot Shot's Angels

2 of my bestfriends and I

Yah beginilah kalo lagi bosen n jutek ma kerjaan. Jadinya pose sendiri deh, yang moto Mr. Tripod. Huauahahaha.....

When the time is come

I really don't know what will happen next
Suddenly the fog climbing down closing my road
On this street of life
I can't see clearly nor thinking clearly
It frozen and foggy

Should I go back jump to the sea
When I already on the hill top?
Should I go back to the billow and salty wave
When I already taste the sweet berry and calm wind?
Should I run down the hill
When all of my lovely friends go to the top?
Should I?

The clock ticking
Still I can't see it
The future of my life
I ran out of answer, I lost directions

A couple of months
That's all I got
I think it's going to be a very hard and rocky road after that
Please give me your wind God
You're the only one left here to help me
Swept away the fog
And show me the way

-me-

What If ?

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I triedBut I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayedIf you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joy Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayedIf you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the lineAnd still this question keep on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayedIf you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

Song By : Kate Winslet

I'm back to this Internet World

So, I'm back in 2007. Hope I can updating my long lost blog. hahaha... So let me check what missing here ....hummm ...hummm I already forget . The only thing I remembered the blog missed my trip to Thailand. But I have it upload in another blog.

Now, it's already 2 months since my studio HotShot Studio open. Everything going fine and I hope it's continued like that. 2 of my friend help me with the operational thing and it's kind of helping me a lot. Btw, since the raining season coming I shoot some interesting picture in front of my studio. Check this out ... believe me it's not on the river... it's a main road :p

New Year Resolutions for Internet Junkies

" I will answer my snail mail with the same enthusiasm with which I answer my e-mail "
" I will stop sending e-mail, YM, ICQ, and be on the phone at the same time and same person "
" I will spend less than one hour a day on the internet, that will be hard because I'm not a clock watcher "
" I will try to figure out why I "really" need 12 e-mail address and account in every new website"
" I resolve .... I resolve to...uh.. I resolve to....uh get my, er....I resolve to....uh.. get my offline work done too!"

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!