Choices of Life

"Berbahagialah orang yang tau apa yang dia cari dan diberi waktu yang cukup untuk mencari" (Tentang dia, by Melly Goeslaw)

Ok,aku sampai lagi di sebuah persimpangan. Dan jalan yang harus ku tempuh sangatlah sulit untuk diputuskan. Yang satu...jalan yang suram,penuh duri dan batu serta tak ada makhluk hidup yang terlihat disana tapi diujungnya terlihat ladang gandum,dan buah segar serta berbagai tawaran yang tak terhingga dan membuat air liur menetes.Bagaikan melihat kolam emas...

Jalan yang satu lagi...jalan yang ceria,penuh sinar,buah2an (walau tidak berlebihan) di kiri dan kanan jalan nya, makhluk2 berbagai jenis berlompatan menari dan tertawa,tapi...tak terlihat sesuatu yang bisa ditawarkan atau dijanjikan oleh jalan ini karna ujung jalan ini masih tidak terlihat.

Aku harus terus berjalan,jalan manakah yang harus ku ambil?Manakah yang harus kutapak untuk masa depan ku?????? Disinilah aku duduk,bersila di persimpangan ini.Menunggu kata hatiku berbicara, harus kemanakah diriku???????

China Liaoning Handicapped Acrobatics and Art Troupe

"Siapa kira,tak punya tangan bisa menyangga langit.Siapa kira, tak punya kaki bisa menghentak bumi" said San Tan, pemandu pertunjukan yang duduk di kursi rodanya. Kalimat tersebut untuk menggambarkan besarnya semangat hidup dan kehebatan rekan-rekannya para penyandang cacat.(Jawa Pos,Rabu 16 Feb 2005)

Hari minggu kemarin aku ngliat pertunjukan akrobat yang lain dari biasanya, soalnya pemainnya physically is not perfect.Some of them are deaf and cannot speak.The other hv no leg,or hand.But their performance is perfect.Just like normal person. Mereka nglakukin hampir semua gerakan acrobat seperti biasanya.Salto di udara,lompat harimau,tari,nyanyi,putar diudara dengan kekuatan gigi,dsb.This group is the only acrobat group in China who have handicapped people as the member,or maybe in the world.Kelompok ini uda berdiri 14 tahun di kota Shenyang.

Wow...bagi olahragawan seperti aku,aku tau gimana rasanya,gimana sulitnya nglakuin semua itu bahkan dengan 2 kaki dan 2 tangan yang sempurna. Aku harus angkat topi untuk mereka yang pastinya bekerja n berusaha 2x or brapa kali lipat lebih dari orang biasa. Untuk akrobat yang sulit bisa memakan waktu sampai 4 tahun latihan katanya.

So, be though 4 U if physically U're not normal. There'll be always a hope somewhere if U try.And 4 U who's born normal and physically complete,be happy with what U have n use it for U and also the other.Don't be so selfish and keep Ur body healthy because its a gift.

If u want to see some picture of the performance just click http://dolphinrider.fotopic.net/c433276.html

Letting Go...

Beach oh beach...
Please bleach tis heart...
Make it warm and clean
So that I can feel that u're here
Far Far away is the name of the place you live

Beach oh beach
I can't see the end of yours
So that the end of mine
Where r u my love?

Beach oh beach
Come and take this tears with u
Back to the place where u come from
Cause that's what I should do
Walkaway and let you go....

Annual Meeting 2005

Nga krasa uda 3 taon kerja di Alto. Taon ini lain dari yang biasanya,annual meeting diadakan di Villa Trawas.Kita brangkat pagi jam 9 kemarin dan balik jam 11 hari ini.Ada satu mobil yang pulang duluan jam 6 pagi. Acara kurang lebih sama,kecuali taon ini ada hiburan tengah malam.Si Gbus ultah hari ini jadi tadi tengah malam tepat jam 12 kita kerjain dia.Hueueheuue seru abis deh,ada ya makhluk kayak gitu.

Happy Birthday Alto...Happy Birthday Gbus.....

Goodbye....

Udah lama nga nulis,sibuk berat amat sangat.....

At last,I see all of my dearest new friends. Yuky,Yuka,I Kang,I An, I Tien. What a nice weekend to spend. Going to the beach, talking,laughing,jogging,then eat,eat and eat.

Then I spent almost 1 week with Yuka and Yuky. Going to some places,yeah right like there are another place except shopping centre. huehuehhee.. TP,SP Mall,PTC,and so on.But then I hardly divided my time because my oldest dog is sick :(. We spent as much as time to b together but it's like not enough ..hueheuuehee...then we had to say c u again. I ride them to the airport for the first flight in the morning after they canceled their flight the day before.

Today,in my office I hv to hear the truth about my dog.She's past away. she's 11 years old (= 77 years old human)and this is my time to say goodbye... :( I hardly keep my tears away. I know I have to let her go but after all of the year I've spent with her....it's so hard.Goodbye Panther....may you be blessed and have some fun there...

Old & New

Taon ini pemerintah mengeluarkan himbauan untuk tidak berhura-hura di malam taon baru,di karenakan suasana duka di Indonesia.Sampai hari ini tercatat 80.000 nyawa lebih menjadi korban tsunami di Indonesia.

I should be at Bali with Xtien-Titien families this new year eve.But,the tsunamis make me and some of my officemate cancelled the trip for the sake of taking a saving way.

So at last,I spent this new year eve with the old gank, '98 gank at Ardi-Dj's house. It's been so long since I met them, sometimes I feel that I'm not belong to that group anymore cause I'm not as outgoing as the other. So much changes between us,so many people in and out our live,so many unspoken words,but....still that familiar laugh are still the same. The laugh that we were share together. So there we are like an old day,celebrating and welcoming the year of 2005. HAppy New Year to all of u my friend,wherever you are.....

2004 Indian Ocean Earthquake

Berita Kepada Kawan
by Ebiet G. Ade

Perjalanan ini terasa sangat menyedihkan
Sayang, engkau tak duduk di sampingku kawan
Banyak cerita yang mestinya kau saksikan
Di tanah kering berbatuan
Tubuh ku terguncang di hempas batu jalanan
Hati tergetar menampak kering rerumputan
Perjalan ini pun seperti jadi saksi
Gembala kecil menangis sedih
Kawan coba dengar apa jawabnya
Ketika ia ku tanya "Mengapa?"
Bapak ibunya telah lama mati
Ditelan bencana tanah ini
Sesampainya di laut ku khabarkan semuanya
Kepada karang, kepada ombak, kepada matahari
Tetapi semua diam, tetapi semua bisu
Tinggal aku sendiri terpaku menatap langit
Barangkali di sana ada jawabnya
Mengapa di tanahku terjadi bencana
Mungkin Tuhan mulai bosan melihat tingkah kita
Yang selalu salah dan bangga dengan dosa-dosa
Atau alam mulai enggan bersahabat dengan kita
Coba kita bertanya pada rumput yang bergoyang

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The 2004 Indian Ocean earthquake was a magnitude 9.0 undersea earthquake on December 26, 2004 which generated tsunamis that caused one of the deadliest natural disasters in modern history.

This rare type of earthquake known as a megathrust earthquake struck at 00:58:53 UTC (07:58:53 local time) in the Indian Ocean off the western coast of northern Sumatra, Indonesia. It was the largest earthquake on Earth since the 9.2-magnitude Good Friday Earthquake of 1964, and tied for fourth largest since 1900.

The tsunamis devastated the shores of Indonesia, Sri Lanka, India, Thailand and other countries with waves of up to 15 m in height. Even the east coast of Africa (especially Somalia) was hit, despite being located 4,500 km (2,800 mi) or more west of the epicentre.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2004_Indian_Ocean_earthquake#Indonesia
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On 26 Dec 2004, we,as humanbeing have to take our responsibility for making Nature angry. Maybe the nature remind us...for not always make a war, hurting nature, and also another, bomb everywhere, playing with the death, playing with innocent life, acting like a God who has a right to take somebody life.

Let's taking some break and realizing what we had done before.Nature give us a chance for help one another through this disaster. Nature was boring with all damages we had done,all of the racist thing that we done in the name of God. God make no differences between us.Australian,English,Indonesian, Malaysian,Chinese,Korean,Indian, etc.We all the same in God eyes. How bout if we appreciate what God has in His mind and not to make Him angry? Just make a peace inside our heart so there will be no jealous feeling among us.

Waterfalls

Time to refresing.. ^^ Today I go to Nangkajajar Waterfall, but brownies waterfall is all we got (maybe because it's rainy season). This time the team member are Bus,Panci,Mut,and Pyor. Then, after burning a little of our fat while we walk in the jungle, we continued our journey to Batu. We eat "bakso" and drink "KUD milk". After we have more power, we go to Coban Rondo Waterfall. It's clean and cold!!! Satisfied and tired we stoped for a while on Pujon before we back to Surabaya.

MOrE Stressedd Out....

Today I have a big meeting in the office. The meeting that I've been waiting for about this last 2 months because it promised to bring another future for me.Because it's sound so democratic.Because it promised that we can choose another future for ALL of us.ALL!!!

So what happens today? Once again I see that there must be black sheep on something. And unlucky that's ME as one of the blacksheep.Congratulation!! Damn! Why I'm waiting for something that sound so nice? I told myself : you the one who's so stupid for hoping so much!

Yeah...here I'm once again,stuck!!! Without knowing what will happen next?Cause it's just a beginning!

STressed oUttt!!!

Been so busy these couple week...working in pain and tired eyes,tired hands,tired butt. I know I can...but I'm still so unmotivated if I remembered that I working my ass on the bullshit things. The system that said different thing to every different people here. I'll give you whatever you want and just shut up then!!

Leaving

After 2 weeks here on Surabaya, Yuky back to Bali (after canceled 3 times^^).I can't really accompanies her because it's during the workday,but I did it as long as I can.
Going to some places,meeting the other friends and also Melly Balikpapan.

Yuka has already come back to Bali last week... talk to her on the phone^^ wondering when will I go to Bali? Hope on January ?

Hey ...just go back to work!

My Brain Usage

Your Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 29%
Visual : 70%
Left : 36%
Right : 63%

Lusida, you possess an interesting balance of hemispheric and sensory characteristics, with a slight right-brain dominance and a slight preference for visual processing.

Since neither of these is completely centered, you lack the indecision and second-guessing associated with other patterns. You have a distinct preference for creativity and intuition with seemingly sufficient verbal skills to be able to translate in any meaningful way to yourself and others.

You tend to see things in "wholes" without surrendering the ability to attend to details. You can give them sufficient notice to be able to utitlize and incorporate them as part of an overall pattern.

In the same way, while you are active and process information simultaneously, you demonstrate a capacity for sequencing as well as reflection which allows for some "inner dialogue."

All in all, you are likely to be quite content with yourself and your style although at times it will not necessarily be appreciated by others. You have sufficient confidence to not second-guess yourself, but rather to use your critical faculties in a way that enhances, rather than limits, your creativity.

You can learn in either mode although far more efficiently within the visual mode. It is likely that in listening to conversations or lecture materials you simultaneously translate into pictures which enhance and elaborate on the meaning.

It is most likely that you will gravitate towards those endeavors which are predominantly visual but include some logic or structuring. You may either work particularly hard at cultivating your auditory skills or risk "missing out" on being able to efficiently process what you learn. Your own intuitive skills will at times interfere with your capacity to listen to others, which is something else you may need to take into account.

Life and Belief

Last Saturday my bestfriend send a short message,told me that she is positive. hhehehe she is pregnant.Congratulation!So her child will be the first junior in our community and our first niece.

Then suddenly this bad news come, my bestfriend on her test result was positive on some virus,it's not bad for her but for the baby. I hope that she can manage her life and also the baby's seriously on this present time. And when it's time to choose, just listen to her heart which better for her life,her husband's,and also her child's not just because her belief. But it's all depend on her and her husband. I just can pray ask 4 the best for their family.

Me and My Camera

It can save all memories in our lifetime...
From the time we're born until the end of our time in this world
All of the good memories and also the bad

Sometimes I just wondering,actually is it me or just my camera that people longing for??

Artemis - The Virgin Goddess

Artemis

The Virgin Goddess of the Hunt is also the protectness of Maidens. She is very beautiful, but can be very cold. She prefers running through the forest to just about anything else.She's way cool,too

Am I look that way? ^^ I think I am!

http://www.paleothea.com/quiz.html

Graduation Day!!!!!!!

Graduation

Akhirnya..........setelah 6 tahun.....akhirnya aku wisuda. Hem...keasyikannya ternyata nga seberapa besar seperti yang kuperkirakan.Soalnya ini sudah bukan waktuku.Walau masih ada angkatanku yang masih kuliah,maupun wisuda sama2 aku,tapi kayaknya akan lebih seru kalo aku lulus pada waktuku.

Ya sudahlah nasi uda jadi bubur,n lagi aku menikmati masa kuliah ku dengan setumpuk suka duka n pengalamannya. Dari pertama ngejar2 kakak kelas untuk dimintai tanda tangan sampe dikejar2 adik kelas untuk minta tandatanganku,demonstrasi,kerja rodi ndekor di kampus,tidur di ruang senat,di lapangan basket,di audit maupun dikelas,mandi di kamarmandi dosen yang ada showernya,bolos kuliah, cangkrux di kantin, mlihara kucing2 kampus,nyiapin acara2 kampus,bertengkar di KOK maupun di keseharian,pasangan2,hal2 supernatural, pertemuan dan perpisahan, berdagang,memungut gelas/botol bekas,etc......(woahhh....masih banyak lagi)smua sudah pernah kulalui dan aku menikmati hidup bersama teman2 senasib sepenanggungan di ruang kecil di blakang kebun dan lapangan basket yang kita sebut ruang C.08 / E.106.

Sekarang saatnya aku melepas statusku sebagai mahasiswa WM....tapi memory nya akan tetap di sana n my heart of course. Untuk mengingatkan bahwa hidup bukan sekedar mencari gelar...Non Scholae Sed Vitae Discimus

Jakarta - Bandung

The Valley

6 At Valley

Yo jalan lagi ....kali ini ke Jakarta tanggal 29 naek kreta.Tanggal 30 persiapan,TM dan latihan. Tanggal 31 pertandingan. Pertandingan ke 3 Perwaguzi. Bukannya apa2 tapi emang kenyataannya ini parah. Masak Juri lupa di kasih makan dan minum pun kering. Bete pokoknya jadi sariawan smua. Ini mungkin pertama dan terakhir kali pertandingan barongsay tonggak diadakan di lantai 2 sebuah mall dimana tonggak harus diangkat secara manual.Semoga ini nga terulang lagi deh.

Dari Jakarta gue ke Bandung tanggal 1 pagi naek kreta bareng Yuky mau nemuin temen2 Bandung. Ada Ester,Maya,Meili de mei, n Yung2. Sayangnya Ester ma Maya musti kerja n skolah jadi kita ketemuan di malam hari doang. Tapi nga papa....uda ketemu ngobrol ngobatin kangen. Aku n Yuky tinggal di rumah Melly yang deket dengan rumah Es n May. Jadi sehabis aktivitas mereka, mrk bisa jalan ke rumah melly n kita ngobrol rame2.Pokoknya kenyang abis di Bandung.Abis kelaparan dan kekeringan 2 hari di Jkt,perutku nga pernah kosong di Bandung ^^.

Malem ke 2 tanggal 2,baru kita semua bisa ketemuan lengkap. Ber-6 plus koko Ster kami ke the Valley.Keren pemandangannya n dingin.....kayak di Batu.Enaknya perjalanannya nga jauh,kalau ke Batu kan butuh 3 jam an.Ini nga sampe 1 jam.

Temen2 Bandung sangat welcome ke kita,kluarga nya juga begitu. Malem trakir di sana kita ngobrol ruame ama papa mama EsMay sampe jam 2 pagi.WAhhhh pokoknya pipi rasanya uda kram.

Tanggal 3 pulang Jakarta dulu naek kreta baru naek pesawat balik ke Sby,si Yuky ke bali. Lalu...tanpa disangka,aku ketinggalan pesawatku yang jam 4 dan harus ambil yang jam 5(yang tanpa ku ketahui ternyata pesawat si Yuky)hauhauhahahuauha uda pamitan ternyata pulangnya sama2,n duduk bersebelahan pula....jodoh banget,dia juga nga tau kalo pesawatnya musti transit di sby dulu sblm ke Denpasar ^^.

Color Checking

I'm The BLACK KOALA (Isn't it cute? hehehhe)

You are Black Koala who has purity and sweetness of a girl.
And no matter how old you get, you can stay youthful.
Your attitude is very straight forward and bald.
You have quick mind, and a sharp instinct to read the other person's mind.
You are an active woman.
Nevertheless, you also possess a motherly character.
You are kind and can show consideration to others.
You tend to be rather argumentative, and will not accept something that is unreasonable.
It takes time to gain your consent.
You are independent, and has a challenging spirit to achieve your objectives and ideals.
Once you start on something, you will not give up half way, or show weakness.
You know how to get on in life, and are a calculative woman.
Economic wise, you've got your feet steadily on the ground.
You are rather suspicious type of person.
You don't tend to take every word of other person straightly.
You try to read behind the lines, very carefully.
You tend to get lost in your thought.
You think high of sports and training.
Nevertheless, you also think a lot about art, and are a romantic sort of person.
Even after you get married, you can be successful as a professional.

http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

Releasing My Eyes.....

Sudah tinggalkan tinggalkan saja
smua persoalan waktu kita sejenak
tuk membebaskan fikiran

Sementara tinggalkan semua aturan yang ada
selalu menghisap dan tak beralasan
memang memang benar teman
kita perlu cooling down dan melonggarkan pakaian

Bebas....Lepas...
Kutinggalkan saja semua beban di hatiku
Melayang ku melayang jauh..
Melayang dan melayang

Kita saling berpandang..bergandengan tangan erat
Dan biarkan tubuh tersiram hujan yang lebat
Dikala kilat lewat
Apakah kita kan slalu bersama sama kawan?
Apakah kita kan slalu berjalan beriringan?
Masih di dalam lebatnya hujan
Kita berjalan bersamamu
Kita kan tebarkan senyuman

Such a long week....Uffff Akhirnya awal bulan yang indah.....Akhir bulan yang melelahkan udah lewat. Tapi tetep aja nga masuk target^^

Tomorrow I'll be going to Sempu Island again, this time .... I'll go with some officemate after it's being delayed and cancel twice(Long story). So.. I'll go on the trip I don't even planning to. Hem.....(_ _o) my fren who hardly want to go suddenly cancel it yesterday because she have to do something with her boyfriend. $^%%$#$$##! But I hv to keep my promise to the other to bring them to that island cause I'm the one who knows where is it and how to go there. (Hopefully......hehehhehehe)

Note 4 today : Boyfriend huh??

SuRprisE from Bali ....

Kalo yang namanya jodoh apa mau dikata. I'm not going to Sempu but a surprise waiting for me at Surabaya. Yesterday,Xtien come from Bali with her older sister. What A SURPRISE.....!! They come in order to go to make up their hair at the saloon. And they should be back in the morning today.

I know it after I called her house at Bali and her servant told me that she's on Surabaya this morning.She just give me a message but not telling me that she's here. She told me that she doesn't want to bother me, but if I can accompany her today, she will take the night plane from Surabaya. Yesterday, I go to TP with Yenny and Nettie but then Xtien give me some sms, so...I met her last night at TP with some of her sister's friends.Wow..... she looks so different. I can hardly recognize her with her new hairstyle (like a Japan doll)

Today, I pick her up at Sheraton then we take breakfast at "Tambak Bayan" and meet Tanto(he's on Tristar, in front of Tambak Bayan), going to Atom Market, then meet Lily at PTC. Then I take her to the airport. Ha ha ha .... I used to drive out of this town so....I take the wrong turn, so lucky there's still a way out. And....we arrive at the airport some minutes before the plane depart. Lucky me....